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There are people who run… they feel they have to

Important is that they realize they have a home to come back to… not only collecting ‘new fish’ but valuing the existing

 

In L.A., Anaheim to be precise, Hans said: ‘Everywhere you go there YOU are’.

 

In other words you always take yourself along. You cannot hide from the past. You might change your believes…Notice that a sharp focus and tangible skills will change your energy in a positive way.

 

You do not want to be to German about things… very often a ‘one time convincer’…. One ‘experience’ dominates their opinion. The flexibility that one needs to adapt is a pearl.

Look at things more than once…

 

When I was 20 my life was dominated by Philosophy, movies, music…books, nature….art…

Never did I say goodbye to that part… although it asks for a certain emotional and rational intellect to stay on the dry land and not drown in stupidity….

 

I am part of the ‘self-analyze….. and ‘I am responsible’ generation… hurting myself more than should be…. Scars on soul and skin. Always wanting to do the good….experience….  A emotional perfectionist but not very willing to compromise…

It was partly a generation thing:

 

Elvis Costello – Accidents Will Happen

 

 

It’s the damage that we do we never know
It’s the words that we don’t say that scare me so

 

The song and full text will be at the end… worth reading and thinking about. As so often musicians like Costello have the ability to make different songs with changing emotions…

 

If you look back on their tracks it feels like a documentary… even without your own view about it…

 

Old enough I am to talk with people and not about them. If I  talk about them …. praise them

Judi Dench says…’the older I get the sillier I get’… that is true for me also

 

An other good quote: you do not get old because are doing things… but because you stop doing (new) things….

 

For me the information, entertainment reality has changed completely in a few years… fear and politics… studies and ‘futures’  are dominant….

Poetry and music are the answers, as any art, on a meaningful life…

It is not an ego struggle anymore with the wish to get old whilst living the same week… week after week…

To die is not always a lost… but we might choose to pay attention to what really drives people… what really drives you….

What does it mean to realize that you have seen somebody… talked to somebody…for the last time….

If that is not your gratitude…. What is…?

 

That is way beyond fear… it is blind ignorance

 

 

fear

gentle and so unappreciated

unapproachable …

with every step you increases in strength

mean whilst the clarity fades away

fear

the turning point in so many lives

living alone with obviously millions of faces

you live in bodies, in walls… might be in the forest

certainly can cover up in the sea

 

fear  is what often sets us free from further action

so you paralyze parts of people…. Unspoken… yet manifest in your invisibility

let us whisper soft almost without anybody hearing it

‘thank you fear  for always being there for me`

Still slightly behind these words….
What. Element of you is my dad’s, what my mum’s …
what part is, if possible ,an anonymous entity
 
fear  you life changer….mostly irrational….
Mostly based on presumed happenings in the past
let me say me I do want to leave you
but will abandon you
 
still thank you fear

 

 

 

 

Elvis Costello – Accidents Will Happen

 

 

Oh, I just don’t know where to begin
Love doesn’t wait forever
It’s now or never
But she keeps ’em hangin’ on
You said you’re so alone
She says she can’t go home without a chaperon

Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
You used to be a victim now you’re not the only one
Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
I don’t want to hear it cause I know what I’ve done

There’s so many fish in the sea
That only rise up on the sweat and smoke of mercury
But they keep you hangin’ on
They say you’re so young
Your mind is made up but your mouth is undone

Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
You used to be a victim now you’re not the only one
Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
I don’t want to hear it cause I know what I’ve done

It’s the damage that we do we never know
It’s the words that we don’t say that scare me so
There’s so many people to see
So many people to hangin’ on and add to your collection
But they keep you hangin’ on
Until you well hung
Your mouth is make up but your mind is undone

Accidents will happen
They’re only hit and run
You used to be a victim now you’re not the only one
Accidents will happen
They only hit and run
I don’t want to hear it cause I know what it
I know what it
I know what it done
I know

 

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